And no, Ange, Adam. I’m NOT implying it belongs to me. It is not my possession.
To think like that about it would be to violate our own time-honoured traditions.
When I say ‘my’ about stuff it is usually an indication that it is something I love. I sometimes say it to or about my friends and other loved ones. ‘My Ange’. ‘My Kate’. ‘My Jasper’. It’s in that spirit that I talk about ‘my fellowship’. I know how easy it is to be misunderstood when using this medium of communication, so please bear with me, folks. I do my best to be clear.
And there is another issue which I have already discussed here and which is clearly on the thorny side. Confidentiality. There are rules, ‘traditions’ governing what we can and can’t say regarding a Fellowship which centres on anonymity.
Yeah. Arguably I have violated these by naming Ange and Adam. I had a lot of complex reasons for doing this, which, to be honest, are VERY well documented on this blog. I have and will continue to refrain from naming other folk. The confidentiality rule is (I’m guessing) primarily about safety. About creating a space where people may feel comfortable sharing honestly and openly.
As time moves on and healing occurs, I will probably go back and remove all mention of surnames. I do not feel ready to do this just yet.
But my aim in this post was to share with my readers who may know nothing about Twelve Step Fellowships what they are about, and more specifically, what DRA is.
The revolutionary thing about DRA, which stands for Dual Recovery Anonymous, is that it is open to all those who suffer with both an addiction (could be substances, alcohol, food/eating disorder, gambling…the possibilities are limitless!) AND a mental health problem.
Adam was the genius who recognised the need for this, as he attended another Fellowship and found that he didn’t feel altogether comfortable or understood sharing about ‘stuff’ above and beyond ‘normal’ addiction. He set up the first UK DRA meeting and faithfully joined forces with one or two other stalwarts and a pot plant while the Fellowship was at the embryo stage.
This is an experience almost all of us with mental health issues who came into one Fellowship or another, shared. The feeling of ‘homecoming’ and relief is so often palpable when such people ARE lucky enough to stumble on DRA.
It is the most honest Fellowship you could ever wish for. People who are often in such dire need of an outlet, to be heard and better still, understood, can share their darkest thoughts, their deepest despair, their dreams and visions, and their rage.
Often, said rage is directed at the very ‘services’ which are supposed to aid and support those of us with mental health problems. We all completely understand how badly these can let us down. This is not ‘thinking badly of professionals’. It is just an immensely frustrating reality that we have to deal with every day.
We can share this, and know that we are supported, not judged, for it. We are also saved from the stigmatisation we can experience in the straightforward ‘addiction’ Fellowships (AA, OA, NA and so on). There we may be the recipients of well-meaning but unhelpful advice. That, for instance, if we are depressed, we just need to keep ‘working our Steps’.
DRA is the final port of call for people who are doubly stigmatised by society. Many of us can ‘work our steps’ until we are blue in the face. It will not magically free us from our mental health condition!
The issue of prescription medication can also be problematic in the addiction Fellowships. Some misguided and slightly fanatical ‘twelve steppers’ may try to tell us that taking our meds is a form of ‘using’ or ‘abusing’ drugs! Clearly massively unhelpful.
OK. Here is where I part from ‘what we’ve done so far’ and go just one teensy step further. I believe that working a Twelve Step Programme along with other people similarly affected by what we sometimes call ‘no-fault’ illnesses, could benefit ANY mental health service user. Whether they are aware of having any addictions or not!
Why so, Zoe, why so? One reason, for me, is that we all of us benefit greatly from peer support. I have written and talked extensively elsewhere as well as here, about my belief that it is the support of others similarly affected that is most useful and most helpful, in the journey of recovery.
Many of us are quite simply alienated by the professionally-run ‘services’ that are available to us in what we laughingly call ‘the community’. We feel both patronised and disempowered. However well-meaning and even good-hearted many of these professionals are, at the end of the day, we are talking a ‘them and us’ scenario which tends to breed both frustration and dependency.
My ‘dream’. Are you ready for this guys? Some of you will know very well what’s coming, as you have got to know me a bit, and are probably covering your ears as we speak, and I start ‘banging my drum’ or ‘tooting my horn’.
Service users caring for other service users. People at different stages of recovery helping those who are currently in crisis or possibly just too debilitated to help themselves right now.
The spiritual input of a Fellowship like DRA. DRA groups in every neighbourhood, where currently you have moribund ‘day centres’ where people huddle for warmth and a little acceptance, but then become institutionalised and can’t move on, out or up.
Bottom line. I believe in service users. I know so many. I love and respect these people. I see their guts and gumption just to get up and face another day. I recognise their amazing talent and potential. I see an entirely new world of de-stigmatised ‘care’, ‘support’ and ‘community’ for what we currently term mental health service users.
Before any of you comment that you don’t identify with that label, or like it, I hear you. Many of us have expressed the wish for an alternative description. I use it simply for convenience, but trust completely that when we begin to evolve our own ‘help’ that consists of reaching out to those who share our difficulties – we will be able to pension the term ‘service user’ off for good. And good riddance, eh folks?
Will be writing more about my ‘vision’ very soon. And when I say ‘my’, folks…remember. I am not indicating ‘possession’…but love.
Hugs. Z X