Am I Still Ill?

I ask this because it has sometimes been my experience that those in the thrall of ‘demons’ secretly long for freedom and even seek exposure.

They have been seen squirming and wriggling about many times in public places or even behind a microphone, seemingly happy to be unmasked.

Many moons ago I remember having quite a deep and interesting discussion with an American Vietnam veteran friend of a friend. The point where we differed was this. I believed there was no such thing as an evil person and didn’t even really believe in evil itself. He was convinced otherwise. Even now I would never make him ‘wrong’ for that. Of course he had his reasons, and I may have looked like a young, naive, sheltered person who had never been to war, right?

A ‘force of evil’ – yes I guess it would be dumb not to accept that it exists, especially given the tagline of this blog and my extensive experience with Satan and demons generally. But a human being evil through and through? Nope, I STILL maintain that this is simply not possible.

What you sometimes get are ‘dead souls’, those who have died spiritually and are really shambling zombies. Salman Abedi the Manchester bomber strikes me as one of those…look at his eyes. There’s no light in them. These do not contradict my viewpoint as they are no longer human in any recognisable sense. They can’t even be said to be ‘bad’ though. They are without moral compass of ANY kind and only exist as some kind of instrument for more powerful forces.

Solly is a case in point. I’ve posted multiple times on his Facebook page, utterly humiliating him with music videos and barbed comments to his dumb posts. He still doesn’t block me (or whatever the fuck you do on Facebook)? He comes running back here at every available opportunity? Phoning me up and just can’t keep away?

He’s confessed to being a masochist! I’ve likened him many times to a self-harming teenage girl. Coming here to try and beat the crap out of me inevitably only worsens his own position after all. Karma bites back pretty swiftly in his case. Round and round we’ve been going, it’s over a year and a half now and honestly on one level I don’t know where the time’s gone. On another, it seems an eternity. This is NOT a ‘relationship’ of any kind! It’s a cosmic battle to the death.

The conclusion is already foregone. ‘Satan’ has no authority over anyone, it is the antithesis of a creative spirit. Yes it has its own ‘power’, strong enough to create fear for sure because creating fear is what it majors in.

The way I see it? Solly is crying out, HOWLING for deliverance. I appear to be the only person in his life who even ‘gets’ the magnitude of what he’s dealing with, so no surprise he’s obsessed with me and can’t leave me alone.

Surely every living human soul (not counting the zombies) craves freedom, light and love? I have told him he is a one-man battleground. And this is why I have so often reached out to him in compassion even after he has transgressed, because honestly? I’ve been there. He’s not a ‘normal’ human being anymore than I am. I wrestled my inner demons all my life, the only difference is, I didn’t have the luxury of any kind of human guide or exorcist.

Deep down he must know that there is a life out there waiting for him if he can only free himself once and for all.