Am I Still Ill?

Hi folks.

Am now blogging for the first time on our newly acquired laptop, kindly donated to us by M’s brother. There were some awkward brotherly skirmishes in getting the thing connected here at my gaff but thank God we finally prevailed without any blood on the carpet.

M is temperamentally extremely challenging at times but incredibly rewarding if you persist. Down the years with my ex I longed for more intimacy and we had our moments but at 48 years old I still lacked what my heart and soul was crying out for…a totally committed full time partner whom I could share my life with.

I will  always be grateful to my ex for those years. He is a great guy. We still have a strong bond of love and loyalty. But long term readers and followers of this blog will remember how our intimacy came to an end with a bang and not a whimper last year with a fairly extraordinary sequence of events. In other words it really did take quite a lot  to break us apart but break apart we finally did and now I know why and rejoice in the knowledge that it was all part of God’s wonderful and mysterious plan for both of us.

I woulld be lying if I said there haven’t been some extremely sticky moments with M. But we also fly so high together. It’s all I could ever have dreamed of and more.

I  never felt so encircled by anyone. A strong arm around me protecting me. Who also needs me and the protection I offer him. Every day is a new adventure. At risk of boring or making you naiuseous dear reader, I just love this man to bits. He is better than sliced bread by far. He is my medicine, my carer, my lover, my husband, my closest friend, my soul partner, my everything.

And every love song we’ve ever heard, hummed along to and loved seems to be about us.

Humbly I have to ask you dear reader if that is not a wonderful and miraculous outcome?