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Waterboy
There are no words to say what this boy means to me. I feel I’m cheating myself by even writing this, but just so you know? He’s my Son! Clearly the No 1 Boy in the Whole World then – despite or maybe even BECAUSE OF ‘the ears’! He was teased so much about them he got them pinned back surgically. Then he started obsessing on his nose being too big.
I’m an odd sort of mother. I didn’t always see a rosy aura of perfection surrounding my son. Yes, I always used to joke around with him saying ‘Mah Boy’s a Genius!’ but sometimes I frankly used to think ‘how can this ugly little fucker be my son?’ Lol.
It’s all about Revenge of the Nerds I guess. We may be the unpopular introverts, have zero friends, sit alone at lunch in High School and whatnot. We’ll never be ‘jocks’ or ‘cheerleaders’.
We’re waaaay too ambitious for THAT dumb shit. Suffice to say? We have Big Plans. So we take OUR support from the Universe, from Nature, from Knowledge, from Inner Strength.
We are MADE of stardust. And to Stardust we return.
Yellow!
Crazy days. Remembering this one will ‘age’ you instantly…it was No 1 here in the UK for an insane number of weeks. Like many such songs, we grew to loathe it, lol!
An Extreme Rabbit On The Loose
Surely Morrissey can’t be the only one to have spotted this Highly Dangerous, Not To Be Approached and Very Hungry Rabbit?
Please don’t forget the other, unmentionable thing that Rabbits are noted for…better watch your backs Ladies and Gents.
Newsflash! You Are God!
https://modernawakenings.com/getting-back-zero/
This lady knows her stuff.
The ability to pass from 0mph to 60 AND RIGHT BACK AGAIN in seconds is the sign of a true Master.
Enlightenment is just like everything else. You need to OWN it, it comes from YOU and is NOT a Cosmic STD that you can ‘catch’ off someone else. You gotta put the work in guys!
Don’t get bogged down in the INFINITE amount of ‘esoteric knowledge’ the Internet will churn out every single day. YOU ALONE are your best teacher. Don’t buy into endless ‘spiritual’ bs and above all NEVER EVER place a ‘guru’ above yourself.
You have no ‘genie in a bottle’, no one ‘has your back’. Pray until your knees bleed, meditate until all of your chakras explode, you will probably gain sweet FA. Besides it’s HOW you do these things, not mechanically repeating them like a ritual. OWN these things and admit to yourself in your heart of hearts that YOU ARE GOD.
This Comes With A Health Warning
I’m perfectly serious, for once. I was in two minds about even posting it…
Maybe my Fave Em Track Ever
And as relatable as ever right now, since I pretty much HAVE collapsed from exhaustion, have man flu, almost lost my voice and have NO energy for going outside apart from this morning, to get groceries.
Got two young foreign guests arriving late tonight. I’m hoping their youthful energy and strength will boost my own tbh.
Saying ‘we live in interesting times’ is almost the understatement of the century, isn’t it?
Wiley Gets ‘Profound’ Lol
Jasper my son would have a little chuckle at that. Duh! Actually Grime pretty much IS moribund.
To whom and what are they hollerin’ back and forth with their arguin’? Bout how big your dick is and what kind of CAR you in?
NO ONE CARES.
Not even them since their bank balance prolly sees them secure for life, right?
And I begrudge them NOTHIN’. They earned it. Blood sweat and tears bro.
But grime and rap generally was ALL ABOUT DUALITY.
And wot has I bin tellin my pals here?
I’m over it.
Solly Stole My Sleep Again
Now don’t ‘tell tales’ Louise. No one likes a SNITCH!
Ah was feelin’ dem suicide feels again. It doesn’t take a lot to set ’em off admittedly.
Then I checked my fave grime rappers’ latest offerings and yeah, it was instant smiles and LMAOS. HOWEVER.
I remain alone. I remain physically fatigued. I remain heartbroke. If I can’t be ‘real’ here on the blog, where can I?
Solly has disappeared without trace. We’re all grieving, and he being the inveterate drama queen he is (own it Sol!) is loving. Every. Minute. But don’t get it twisted. He ain’t tryin’ to make my life harder. Very far from it. He just wants shit to go down. Wants to make his absence ‘felt’, geddit?
Yanno, he’s the Motherfuckin’ Starboy after all. Shouldn’t he have a perfect right to Fake His Own Death?
OK guys. Since I have no fucker on this planet to talk to right now (2.45am, even the would-be suicides have long since retired to their beds) I’ll tell you what a mate tells. And you’ll find out just how desperate you need to be to ‘befriend’ someone like me. We cool?
I’ve got my coffee. Coffee is my comfort drink. Maybe the caffeine is my chemical pal or something. I’ve got nuff baccy but only about three rizla papers left. That’s like a dark cloud looming on the horizon. Coz what if (Dog Forbid) I should RUN OUT BEFORE THE SHOP OPENS?
I’m delighted you appreciate the seriousness of my plight. Now let’s have a song. JME? You light up my world like NOBODY else. OK, admittedly, it may be because you remind me so much of me and I’m a confirmed, fully certificated narcissist.
I also still have a lingering ‘thing’ for chronology. Some peeps (mentioning no names SOLLY) seem indifferent as to precisely when a track was made. Which probably explains why he don’t ‘roll with the times’ (Wiley) and all his shit is uncool and derivative af. Hahaha, he’s meant to be so ‘cool’ and ‘street’. He’s got all the lingo and patter down pat. But his musical taste sucks donkey dick just like the Big Gay Fuck he is. That’s kind of a NSFW ‘Big Friendly Giant’ or something.
While I myself me? Well. (Gives complacent snicker while dusting imaginary cobweb off shoulder). EVEN MY MUM who was never easily pleased admits I have IMPECCABLE taste.
OK, here goes you guys. Hit ’em wiv da big guns.
On Shameless Self-Publicity
Hey guys, quick update for my soul family. That means you, dummies!
Less is more, we often hear. A sentiment with which I am in profound agreement. Except when I’m not.
Cutting to the chase, losing Solly is like having my heart ripped out of my chest.
But moving swiftly on from that, I have work to do and he knows that, coz so does he.
As Elton once sang so beautifully, ‘It’s No Sacrifice’. We ain’t into martyrdom, are we Maria of soulsoothinsounds?
Whether physically together or not and even if ‘Love Tears Us Apart’ (see Joy Division), we’re a team, and always will be.
Solly showed me many things. How to be loud and WITHOUT SHAME. Such an important lesson for me at the time (and he knew it!).
I’m honest on this blog. Any of my loyal readers and soul family generally KNOW how frustrated I’ve been.
And they probably also know that deep down, despite sex being about the most basic energy force and driver there is – my frustration is NOT SEXUAL.
Like many others in my soul family, I have sublimated my sex drive. In other words, I have taken my sexual energy and transmuted it, channelled it into my work.
I have hated Facebook with the best of us. But BillyHeartBeing advised me that despite being rebarbative in so many ways it is a good way to connect.
Don’t let FB use you! Use FB! Own it and make it YOURS.
Same with everything else you hate.
So FINALLY reaching the main point of this post? I have ‘created’ a publicity page for this blog. I just could not stand that pictures of piano-playing cats were ‘going viral’ while I was lucky to receive three hits a day worldwide.
My link to the publicity page is here. Wish me the best of British luck with it guys. You may not even REALISE how much inspiration and aid you give to me daily so Natalie Merchant’s track Kind and Generous goes out to each and every one of you here!
THANK YOU!
On Being Fleeced (Robbed)
Yes. I have been stolen from many times. I have been tricked many times. I have been betrayed by people I trusted many times.
And last night the Universe gifted me a dream where I was once again divested of pretty much everything I owned, including my beloved home.
For some reason my history of being repeatedly robbed, fooled and betrayed has NOT robbed me of my ability to trust. If you listen to the talk by Billy in my last post you will hear that we ALL must be Cosmic Fools.
Those who know me well, especially my son, are WELL AWARE of just how huge an issue this has been for me.
I can tell you I was extremely relieved to wake up from this very real-seeming dream and know that I am safe in my own home and that, in fact, NOTHING has been taken and I am in no immediate danger.
Another feature of the dream that is worth mentioning. Those who stole from me (what I was most upset about? My computer, lol, not even a very expensive model, but still…) laughed about it. They laughed at me as they stole everything I owned. So AS WELL as now owning nothing – not even a home – I got to feel like a fool and the butt of a joke.
Thanks Universe, for bringing me that information in a dream. I’m serious. Because it was something I needed to be reminded of. Forewarned is forearmed as they say.
How To Get Offended
I’m not so much a genderbender.
More just defiant to the core.
Hah! You think I don’t have ‘wives’? I’m a Muslim I guess (that or a Mormon) coz I got MANY. A MULTIPLICITY OF ‘MALE’ WIVES! Coz I’m not truly bisexual and CERTAINLY not ‘bicurious’ (ugh)!
At the same time (STRETCH those paradox muscles guys) I’m loyal to the core and a one-man-woman. OK, WTF I hear you say.
SMASH APART THOSE RETARDED DUALITIES! You know it makes sense.
Even if the ‘sense’ it makes is a retarded brand of sense.
THE MORE RETARDED THE BETTER! Because that’s exactly what will happen when you turn the world upside down, right?
I’m never offended when I hear the word ‘bitch’. I’m never offended by women being treated as sex objects. I’m pretty much NEVER OFFENDED, period.
To illustrate: over to you JP Sears.
Nothing Is Impossible
Unknown album (03-02-2017 04-51-36) (file://DESKTOP-Q7TU9PG/Users/Zoe/Music/Unknown%20artist/Unknown%20album%20(03-02-2017%2004-51-36))
Not to say they don’t make it darn difficult. Yes, I wanted to play Ezra’s music here. And yes, I’m no geek. And yes, the very few YouTube vids of him that were available online are no longer. And yes, I have a CD but can’t figure how to play it to y’all this way.
All I can do is drink coffee, smoke a ‘burn’ in honour of my many bruthas ‘inside’, and hope for a miracle. Lol!
You need Windows Media Player for this. Unknown album (03-02-2017 04-51-36) (file://DESKTOP-Q7TU9PG/Users/Zoe/Music/Unknown%20 artist/Unknown%20album%20(03-02-2017%2004-51-36)) (Same link as above)
Am I Still Ill? 
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on September 23, 2017